Lately I haven’t been feeling as engaged with my work as I have been in the past. Each day feels like it blends into the other with the same staff members arguing over petty things and the same patients (literally – the frequent fliers have been flying in a lot more frequently recently) presenting with the same complaints. It’s humbling and frustrating to know that sometimes no matter how above and beyond my duties I go, I’m quickly brought back down to problems that just can’t be solved. It’s tiring arguing with the same floor about patient transfers, it’s tiring to have to turn away the same drug seeker three times in one shift. It’s tiring to have to work harder and faster to maintain patient flow while being left on the back burner by the rest of the department. Perhaps its summer and seeing people enjoying warm evenings while I trek it inside to the windowless department is getting to me more than I thought but things are definitely feeling – stagnant. I don’t know if I need a new challenge, more responsibilities or another job. I suppose for now I have to get dressed, go to work and give viciously dirty looks to the resident who complained to my charge nurse that I need to “smile more”.
This post is most certainly a downer so I’ll leave a link to Hyperbole and a Half. This site has been providing me with life sustaining laughs during night shifts!
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